The Spencer Hamilton Blog

It came once out of the blue Wondered who it was when you revealed it was you My heart caught in my chest and anger too At the thought of you popping back into my life once again It was a text but it may as well have been a knock at my door I felt as if I had been struck by lightning It made me feel so panicked and such a mess of contradictions   Why are you contacting me? Wasn’t four years enough for you? I refuse to be love’s fool What I thought we had is cooled off No more…No more…It will never be   Again…no way Four years of tragedy in one fragile heart like mine I won’t go to an old love on a new page The chapter and book is finished I can’t pick it up again My year away has been rough wondering if I will find another who will be my love I have no doubts I will But I have them in my mind sometimes No one wants to end up alone, and cold A bed with no warm memories I’d rather have a cold bed Than...

Hello,  When I met him, he was--and is--good looking, he had a job, he was smart, and when he asked me: What kind of guy are you looking for? I said: A guy I can enjoy. I have enjoyed him, but there was a bomb hidden under him that I had an idea about, but thought it was in the past. The reality would bear a different story. I remember meeting him May 17 2008 and then having a date the next day at Friday's, Waterfront then hanging at my house for a short while and when he left, I thought: I really like him. I most certainly did. The next two weeks we were together almost every day, I remember just wanting to be close to him all the time and just texting and calling, waiting for another message from him to come through and just lighting up as I saw Darryl's name as the sender of a message. Then it all just crushed me like a weight when he said on March 31st, that he was going into a rehab. I really liked him, I didn't want to let him go so I said I'd wait and we...