The Spencer Hamilton Blog

It came once out of the blue Wondered who it was when you revealed it was you My heart caught in my chest and anger too At the thought of you popping back into my life once again It was a text but it may as well have been a knock at my door I felt as if I had been struck by lightning It made me feel so panicked and such a mess of contradictions   Why are you contacting me? Wasn’t four years enough for you? I refuse to be love’s fool What I thought we had is cooled off No more…No more…It will never be   Again…no way Four years of tragedy in one fragile heart like mine I won’t go to an old love on a new page The chapter and book is finished I can’t pick it up again My year away has been rough wondering if I will find another who will be my love I have no doubts I will But I have them in my mind sometimes No one wants to end up alone, and cold A bed with no warm memories I’d rather have a cold bed Than...

The Best Boyfriend is a Girlfriend Why? No sexual tension, once you get that out of the way, everything’s cool Just friends Movies, eat, shopping, both of you can say what you like Girl talk You can kee kee about your guys and even double date if you both have someone Have peace of mind Nothing is really at stake, you can relax and hang out without wondering if you look like a blithering idiot, because if you are he can say: You sound like a blithering idiot and how do you respond? By saying, yes it’s true or saying something more offensive to them Closeness There are things only friends can do for each other and things only lovers can do, but a friend has a closeness to you that many people may not be able to breach because of the fact that they don’t have the kind of closeness you’ve got with your ace booncoon. You always know when he’s not being entirely honest with you and you can call him out on it and when he asks why don’t you believe me you ...

Hello,  When I met him, he was--and is--good looking, he had a job, he was smart, and when he asked me: What kind of guy are you looking for? I said: A guy I can enjoy. I have enjoyed him, but there was a bomb hidden under him that I had an idea about, but thought it was in the past. The reality would bear a different story. I remember meeting him May 17 2008 and then having a date the next day at Friday's, Waterfront then hanging at my house for a short while and when he left, I thought: I really like him. I most certainly did. The next two weeks we were together almost every day, I remember just wanting to be close to him all the time and just texting and calling, waiting for another message from him to come through and just lighting up as I saw Darryl's name as the sender of a message. Then it all just crushed me like a weight when he said on March 31st, that he was going into a rehab. I really liked him, I didn't want to let him go so I said I'd wait and we...